At times like this, I really need all the support I can get. I know my friends always say they’ll always be there for me whenever I need them, and I know they really mean it, but I still don’t have the heart to call or text them whenever I’m feeling sad. I mean I cry like bazillion times a day, I’m sure they’d be pretty annoyed if I keep calling them pouring me heart out with the same boring stories. And I hate being the negative one, I hate bringing people’s mood down when they’re happily living their lives. I feel so lonely… And to think that he was the one who’s always there whenever I’m feeling down like this, he was the one who always had a way to jolt me right awake, to soothe me with his comforting words, to be my punching bag, to bring my zero self-esteem to a level higher than a peacock’s pride, to make me smile brighter than the sunshine..and to finally realize that he’s gone, he’s not mine anymore, he’s doing all that with his new love..makes my heart ache so bad, like it’s being twisted with a wrench, gutted by a knife, and it hurts so so bad… How am I ever rising back up, on my own? Somebody please, enlighten me! Tell me how?
